robert ; take three

Wow, just when I think things can get any worse with me and Robert .. I tried to talk to him about things, and to see if he was still mad at me. I asked him if he was still mad at me, he said that it was all up to me. I tried to tell him that it wasn't my choice, it was up to him. He then had the balls to say that it was up to me because I'm the problem . All I said to him was wow .. He came back with "leave me alone. Your just plain stupid. I gave you a good friend and you fucked with it. Its your problem. Not mine." Wow ... really ? Can you say heart breaker </3
I started to cry just about instantly ... I am now officially done with his shit ...

robert ; take two

Me and Robert haven't talked since the other day when he said we shouldn't talk for a while. Well, I'm going to crack here soon and actually talk to him, casue there is just so much stuff that I need to talk to him about. I really could have used him there for me the other night ... But I'm scared that I will mess up our friendship even more ...

; August 10th 2011

So, I really need a new phone, and I'v been debating over a blackberry and a Iphone .. I don't know what one to get ! What do you guys think ?

Here's the thing about friends;
The ones that you don't expect to be there for you, will always be there for you, while the ones you think would be there for you no matter what, aren't there for you at all.

You will always make new friends, and the people who were meant to be your friends will stay with you til the end.

And some are only there to make you feel pain.

I haven't been sleeping very well lately .. I'v had so much on my mind with everyone & everything ! I hope I get a better sleep tomorrow night when William is over ... One more day !  

fam jam ; take two

So, I love it when my mom thinks my ex & I are just friends with benefits and then pretty much calls me a whore ... gotta love family right ?

William ; take two

Wow, how sad am I ? Break up with my boyfriend, week later I want him back hard core , like really ? Ugh .. so I was at his place and we were playing video games like we always used to and everything was pretty much the same. But at the same time, they were totally different. Before when he used to help me with it I would kiss him & thank him. When we were done playing before we would kiss and cuddle on the bed, but tonight, that's all I wanted. All I wanted was to lean over and kiss him. He made it very clear to me last night that things wouldn't happen between us again, and it actually kinda breaks my heart. Instead of leaving right after we were done playing, I went and layed down on his bed. He could tell something was wrong, and asked me over and over what was wrong. I didn't tell him, I couldn't tell him . I got up and left in tears, by the time I got home he had texted me and asked me what was wrong , and I still don't want to tell him . I don't know what to do ! Should I tell him when we dog sit my friends dog ?

music ; take one

I have always been a fan of music , but as I get older my view on music & my appreciation for it is changing as I grow. But there is one artist that will always have a spot in my heart ; Classified <3 Ever since my older brother introduced me to his music, I haven't been able to get enough of him. His music is real , truthful & it's just amazing in general ! I thought that I would share a song by him, it's the first song that I have ever heard by him, and I still listen to it to this day. It is very inspirational & reminds me to keep my head up <3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CVTZXA1sWdU

; August 9th 2011

So, last night I ended up talking to William about how I felt , and well, I got my answer as to what I should do. Back of and be friends. He told me straight up that things wouldn't happen with us again , unless I wanted something along the line of "friends with benefits" and I'm thinking , yeah, right !   So while I was doing my cleaning today, instead of thinking, I just jammed out to my music and thought about me , and said screw everyone ! Life is good ....